NEW YEAR, 2011.

Its 3am on the 1st day in 2011, sitting all alone with a glass of ice coffee near me.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Well, I'm kinda say that this new year's eve was kinda different.

You know, I thought it would be boring or something, but it was not.

I did a lot of things, and it was fun! Spent this new year's eve just at home with my family and boyfriend, beloved people around me. Sounds lovely, isn't it?

The moment that I like most is, when I could see the fireworks with my boyfriend.

God, fireworks are one of my favorite thing.

Talking about resolution in 2011, yes I do have it.

Such as..

• Study harder and less skip class LOL!
• Do more exercise. (Burn fats..)
• "Time is Money"
• Spend more time with my family, boyfriend, and bestfriend
• Increase everything in my religion
• Less childish, more understanding.
• Try to learn everything that we've done to be a lesson in the future.

Yeah, these are some resolutions but trust me there are still a lot that I couldn't tell it here.

How about you guys? How about your new year's eve, and your resolution?

Last but not least,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011,

MAY JOY & HAPPINESS WILL ALWAYS WITH US! HORRAYYY.

Evrthg.

You are my best-best-friend,

my enemy,

my partner in crime,

my brother,

my lovely boyfriend,

my future husband.

You're my everything..

Happy 10th!

Hugs & Kisses.

x!

18/12/08.

Its exactly the date.

Been two years, since I moved.

Kinda miss it?

Yes!

I miss my life there.

Heartless?

How many gallon of tears have I wasted?

Feel like I'm drowning.

I wanna scream, but I can't.

Its hard to breath.

All I can do is crying, and waiting for you to realize it,

and help me to fix it.

I'm drowning with all these tears.

Life-Must-Go-On.

Life must go on.

Even we're alone,

Nobody cares,

We still have to face this empty road.

Because life is too short for giving up.

Desperately Needed.

Oh, how I need a holiday right now.

Going to the beach,

Laying on the sand,

Hear the sound of wave,

Smell those scents.

YOU & I.

You and I,

We may be different,

But we're still humans anyway

You and I,

We may look different,

But we're still humans anyway

You and I,

You may see things in different view,

But we still see the same thing anyway

You and I,

We may think in different way,

But still think of the same thing anyway

You and I,

We may be different,

But I still love you anyway

(Tiffany Willam)

Football.

Everybody are talking about the football game, nowadays. I've watched it live once, and its tottaly different. The atmosphere, especially. =)

SUPPORT FOR INDONESIA!

Faster, please?

I Really Can't Wait For Holiday.

L&F.

I call it, Love & Future.

Fucking-Facebook-Hacker.

I gotta say that my Facebook has been hacked with some jerk out there, and my Yahoo! too.

Dammit? yeah.

So, for people who read this and have my Facebook account, kindly please just delete it.

I'm about to make a new account. But, is it important to make another one? Because, so far I don't fee' worry about it. But, we'll see.. =)

December.

This is it, the last day of this year. Gonna wave my hand to 2010 and say hello to 2011.

I'm about to curious with what will happen in 2011. Well, you know, 2010 is so great for me.

Kinda gloomy in the first, but for the rest.. Gosh, I love it. 2010 is my year! Even I didn't get in to my fav university, but I'm so grateful with my collage now, I've got good friendsS, good doctors, good lectures, good schedule, and so many things.

Owh, I forgot mention about love-life in 2010. I can't help it, its so great! Well, another love-sweet-story, so much in love, few problems, more hugs, kiss.. Ah, its too sweet. I don't want it end.

Hello, boy. Will you change your feeling with mine? Because I won't, until I dead, I won't.

Seriously, I'm kinda sad 2010 will be over, but this life. Life must go on. (sigh)

Afraid?

I'm starting to feel afraid. Afraid of losing him. Call me dumb or whatever, I didn't even know why am I think about this. Am I too afraid of these so I deeply sick thinking about all of these? Yeah, sometimes I have to think about the negative side. I always know that he loves me, he will never leave me, and he said I'm his future. Hell yeah, that's so sweet.. I believe that, because so do I.

But, will he keep loving me when I turn old? When all my hair turn gray and its start to fall then finally bald? Will he keep loving me when there's a young girl prettier than me?

Its all his options, and whatever he'll choose, I'll stay with my final decision. I'll still love him even he turns old and his hair turns gray or bald. I'll still love him even there's a handsome man on front of me.

Only death can separate my love. Oh, no! I'll still love him from heaven.

New!

Well, for about this year (maybe) I'm not staying in my house. Kinda sad? Yes it is. But this is life, as we grow older, choices are more coming and we have to face it. My house is quite far from the campus, so I have to rent a room closer to the campus. Far from my real house, far from my parents, have to face new people, new friends, new place, and new routines.

Talking about grow older, give me a number of age when people call you've grown up. Because for me, I'm 18 and still I'm not feel that thing. I'm not try to say I'm chlidish, but you can see I still dependence with my parents and others. Can you say that I'm mature enough?

You can say that I'm not mature enough, but.. we have to think maturely! Think maturely especially if we want to decide something, wether is it right or wrong for us.

Never Regret.

Found new.

Guess where am I.. Yep! Now am sitting in front of my house alone bbm-ing with my boyfie and browsing, sounds weird? Yes it is. Btw, this is my first time doing these things, thought it could be creepy or something but, this is GOOD, its fun being like this. Alone, no one can disturb. I'm sure you guys likes to be alone for refreshing our mind from all the troubles, thinking, introspection, and many other things. Am feeling so peaceful being like this. Ah, so many troubles today! Eh not many actually just one thing, but it was hard, it was sad, it was awful. I've never thought before that I would argue about that thing and I can't believe it! Damn.. But just like he said, make it a lesson for the future. So we won't do that things anymore.

So, how's your day? Did you find something new, like mine?

And have you learnt about what you got today?

C.

Hello, my name is Cleo. I was made in hmm I don't really know exactly, but I was bought on 22nd May 2010 and given to my daddy on 24th May 2010 and they made it to be my birthday. =) I am pink, just like my mummy's one of her fav colour, and I have a fatty tummy just like my daddy's. I love mum and daddy so much. =D

Life, nowadays.

Hello, people. How’s life? Mine was excited with my-new-routine yet tiring. Well, college is still going well, friends are good, and my class’ schedule was also great, but really, I don’t really can stand with the distance between mine and the campus. It’s quite far, even I only use the highway, but it also tiring. Lucky me, mom always drives me to campus, besides I’m not allow yet to bring my own car to campus for about two years.

Love life? I’m kinda sick. I miss him too much, I wanna meet him. It’ll be two weeks I don’t meet him, even this Sat he will come quite long, for celebrating Lebaran too. Yea, this is kinda long-distance-relationship. We’re separate by distance. Its really challenging. We have to always control our emotion. ‘Lil problem could be big if we can’t control our emotion, but for me its not a really big deal. The important thing is, I love him so much and I believe he does.

Deserted

Mungkin ini rasanya kalo ngga punya siapa-siapa.

Sepi

sendirian.

Ngga bisa ngapa-ngapain.

Nangis.

Night talk.

Well, HI.. It's a very long time I didn't use this blog to share. Since I'm using Tumblr more, hihi. Actually i wanna write this down on Tumblr but hell yeah that site can't use at the moment.

And here I am, in the middle of the night. Alone. I have no credit for extend my internet service on my blackberry. GREAT!

Now, playlists on my blog are playing. Yea, first song. I don't know why it always reminds me of my boyfriend. It's so touchy.. Like, I wanna cry. HAHA I know it's too much. Really, I don't know what to do then finally I write it down here. Ya ya ya, I need my boyfriend accompany me. NOW.

ARGH, I always ask to myself. Why am I too deeply in love with my boyfriend? It's really different. We're in a month of 5! And those feelings are keep! Not change! Oh my God please help me to make him the last for me. Help us to through these days. Make us endless. And make him the best for me. I just... love him too much!

GRADUATON & 4TH MONTHS ANNIVES

Graduation!!

& 4th months annives <3

3rd mths

Wednesday, 19th May 2010

12:18AM

"Sayang sekali lagi happy 3 motnhs ya :)

walopun kita masih baru tapi aku udah sayang bgt sama kamu :')

makasih ya sayang utk 3 bulan terakhir

you've been such a great mood booster!

Hibur aku yg di tolak univ berkali-kali :(

tapi makasih sayang supportnya.

Makin sayang di kedepannya ya sayangkuuu.

I love you more than everything, honey ♥"

Enjoying Picnik~

Yearbook

Btw, yesterday I just had my Yearbook photosession done! We made it in PT Kerta Niaga building in Kota Tua. It was kinda creepy there, but they have cool spots that we can take :p

We took it nine hours! From nine to six!! :S But we made it successfully =D

(photos, later)

Officially Graduated \=D/

ALHAMDULILLAAAAAH! I'm officially graduated from Highschool :)) and my score? Hmm not bad lah. My school 100% passed! Thank God. I really sorry to hear that some of my friends failed in some subjects and have to remedial their UN in May :( Cayo! Cayo! You can do it guys!

Hmm, goodbye Highschool, huh? Actually, I'm gonna miss this Highschool thingy so much even I just studied in my new school for about 1 and a half year, but.... feelin' this sadness, too X_X

(click for clearer view)

*Hey new friends, thanks for being nice to me for about this 18 months ya.

Even I'm a new students, feels like you're all being so friendly to me.

I'm confused what am I feelin' right now,

happy? yes! but my heart still.... feelin' sad to leave you guys!

Hope y'all be successful in the future.. amin :')

So long...

GONNA MISS Y'ALL, 2010!

Deux mois

Wow, it's been two months since I have a relationship with my boyf. I know it's not really long time yet, but it doesn't matter since I feel the love in my heart for him ;))

Btw, I gave him a cupcake (dumb me! forget to take a pict of it) :p and for this whole day, I had a very great time with my family and also HIM :-*

All I wanna say is...

Happy two months, sweetheart. Thanks for everything in the last two months,

thank God has gave me such a wonderful person like you.

Like you said, hope everything won't be long lasting but endless :')

As you wish and also my wish, I love you and won't stop loving you.

It's ok :'D

*deep sigh* In fact, I'm not accepted in UGM, yayaya but I got information from my friend, Sendy. Actually I got Faculty of Health & Nutrition but because of I went tothe toilet twice, they disqualiffied me, FVCK!!!!! I mean, if I'm not allowed to go outside the class, why they let me out HHH! I can't imagine ... :O

But it's ok, I'm sure God will give me another better way. UGM is just not for me, still optimistic for UI or UNPAD :"D

Yearbook Photosession

Hello, fellas! As the 3rd grade we better have a yearbook, ryt? Actually, my school wanna take our pict on January but because of that accident we delay it until this April.

We are so excited about it especially my class ;) Our theme is about mafia hihihi so we all girls dresses like mafia girls with elegant outfit but still bring weapon hiddenly ;p

I was confused what am I gonna wear, but finally I decided to make that dress instead of I buy it. My dress is gonna be long-darkblue-velvet-dressed with one-shouldered-padd. I was influenced by a film Mr and Mrs Smith, the way that Angelina Jolie dressed up is really cool

My dress would be like this but with one-shoulder-padd hihi now it's being made by tailor, I just can't wait for it. It'll finish on 26th :D

Love ;;)

Hello, fellas! How's life? Mine was great. I've done UN and UTUL UGM and this Sunday I'm going to do SIMAK UI. Geez, I need y'all pray, guys :p

Btw, I wanna talk to you guys about my love life ;;) Yeah I know I never talk about it, I mean in here but actually you can follow my twitter, yeah I sometimes mention his name there :p

Ok! Ok! Lemme introduce him. His name is Putra (like I've already mentioned), yes he's older than me and his doing his studies in Bandung, yes Bandung guys. So we're in a long-distance-relationship :( Actually it's not a very big problem he stays in Bandung, besides I've done it before further than this. But I feel different, I feel like every second I miss him and it makes me crazy for sure :(

In my mind, everything has it's wisdom so I could learn everything in it. Like this, I could learn how to respect, trust, and be honest to someone esp my boyf :) because I know long-distance-relationship isn't as easy as like short-distance-relationship so I have to be more patient, be honest and trust him 99,9% :p 'cause if we don't do that, it will makes you stressful I tell ya and I don't really want wasting my time on that thing. Being in a relationship has its advantages, it's for how to love and to be loved by someone, so it's really unnecessary if we have to be stressed out. That's way, I'm enjoying my relationship with less worry and full of trust :D

By the way, he almost every week come to Jakarta, so yeah it's not really a big deal. The most important thing is I LOVE HIM and it will erase all my negative thinking to him :-*

"Distance means nothing when someone means a lot"

Bismillah...

Yes, it's 28th March and I just done my first PTN test, UGM! Fufufufu the test was difficult huhu but I still optimist with the result hihi. Btw, I choosed Faculty of Dentistry and Faculty of Health Nutrition :D The test was over and now let's just play for the result. And next, gotta get ready for SIMAK UI and SMUP UNPAD. Bismillah...

Hmmm, btw do you still remember last year? Yes, 28th March 2009! When I celebrated my 17th birthday party. Time moves very fast, isn't it? I feel just like a couple weeks ago I prepared everything for my birthday party, but it was........ exactly a year ago! Actually, my 17th year old is not too wonderful like other people said. Too many problems in it (sigh). For me, my 18th birthday is so much better. Simple but lovely :-*

Zo!

V, we really miss you

We are wondering...

What are you doing there?

Are you happy or feel lonely?

We're just finished our national exams, bro!

It felt awkward our class without you

You supposed to be here,

did our national exams together.

A couple weeks later, we're going to Bali.

Next two months, we're having graduation :'(

Geez! Last graduation I read the MIT Awards with you, didn't we?

You looked good with those suit, black T-shirt in it and a pair of jeans :'p

Damn, I really miss you, V!

Miss you like hell!

I miss you voice!

LOL-ing!

Careness!

and your,

iPod :p

I miss everything of you

I remember, when we discussed about our yearbook photosession,

you agreed my opinion, you said "Wah, boleh tuh dil! City lights! Keren!"

But sorry we couldn't make it, dude!

And your future? To be an architect :(

So you must be an architect in.............. heaven.

You make your own heaven with your own design :'D

It must be cool!

And I'll visit you.... someday :"(

DONE!

I wrote it while I was doing my chems exam this morning on extra paper for us to count :p

"Hello! I'm doing my chems national exams right now!

It's been 50 mins but I feel bored and sleepy alredy, huhuhu suram

I don't even uderstand with this tasks!

Btw, this is the last day of UN! I'm extremely excited!

I'm waiting for the next an hour

And then.... YUHUUUU!

Bye, national exams 2010!

Let's just pray for the good result.

Hope everything will be ok ;)"

My Best Birthday, ever!

Hello, fellas! I'm officialy 18! Yes, my birthday is on 23rd March and I was really glad with my birthday several days ago.

The best part is, midnight surprise :D:D:D

My whole family and of course, my boyfriend made a surprise birthday for me!

Thank you so much my family especially my boyf, PUTRA! Geez, I love you like too muchhhh :-*

Oh ya, btw thanks for all the gifts, really love it.

Sunglasses (?)

Hello Hello Haaaaai. Long time didn't do this post thingy. Actually I really wanna post many stories like I used to but since in senior year, yeah you know, busy with those crazy stuff's, blah! :s

Btw, a couple weeks ago I went to plaza senayan with mommy. There was a big sale on Metro, so we were like crazy to buy anything, but really, the price was just too.. wow!

Then when I walked around, I saw some sunglasses first it was just like ok, so-so. But after I walked pass trough it again, from so-so changed to WOW! and I felt like wanna buy it, oh men, please mom.. but mom didn't lemme buy it yet. She said later huhuhuhuhuhuhuh

I want it most is.. Ray Ban! Geeeez. Mom, pleaseeee

♡ ♡ ♡

February, 19th 2010

Muhammad Putra Setia♡ ♡ ♡

Hello

Sorry, not to mean anything. I just miss do this blog thingy. Maybe later I'll start it again, but not now. Later, on my new life..... See ya :-)

Selamat Jalan, Vincenzo :"""")

Innalillahi wa innailaihi roji'un....

Ngga pernah sangka gue bakal menyebut kalimat di atas untuk vincenzo, sahabat gue, temen gue. belum bisa percaya, semalem pandu telfon gue bilang vincenzo meninggal. tapi tadi pagi ke rumahnya, vincenzo udah menutup mata dengan muka yg pucet. ngga bisa gerak, nafas pun ngga. dia tidur, pergi utk selama-lamanya dan ngga akan pernah balik lagi. Allah udah punya rencana lain utk vincenzo. sebentar lagi UN, tetapi vincenzo udah lulus duluan. dia udah tenang disana.

vincenzo, dulu pertama gue masuk GIS vincen belum masuk, baru setelah beberapa hari setelah itu dia masuk, orangnya ramah banget. temen cowok di kelas gue, biasa buat curhat, kasih nasihat ke gue, ingetin baju gue kekecilan lah, minjemin ipod nya dan ngasih lagu-lagu baru yg menurutnya enak, dia tau semua cerita gue, ngga ada yg di umpetin dari gue, semua gue cerita ke dia.

dia juga cerita waktu dia lagi pdkt sama Bibil, ceweknya skrg. ngga ada yg tau, cuma gue, bibil, vincen. sampe akhirnya gue deket banget sama vincenzo. terlalu banyak kenangan sama dia, walaupun gue baru kenal setahun.

Selamat jalan ya vincenzo, kita semua pasti kangen banget sama lo. kelas kita pasti beda tanpa kehadiran lo, kita kangen ngakak lo, guru-guru yg sering marahin lo, ekspresi lo, dan semua tentang lo. we love you vincenzo and we won't stop loving you.

ini foto-foto terakhir gue sama vincenzo. hari senin. tgl 18 januari 2010.